Monday, 21 November 2011

Back to Reality

After almost 7 weeks of being away from Angel, its time to face reality again. I will be reuniting with angel at the end of this week and I am really looking forward to it. This time away has given me a lot to think about and gave me the time to look back at the last few months and finally put all the pieces together with a more relaxed mind frame. On the bright side as much as I missed angel she seemed to cope well with me suddenly not being around anymore, once again she proved that not every autistic kid is the same. As most parents with autistic kids would tell you that their kids need their routine and when something changes they have a melt down. Well I'm happy to report that no such thing happened here. Angel would watch me on the computer and tap on the screen and try and say something and that's about it! I'm sure she did wish I was around but thankfully she did not fuss over it and I am very proud of that. 

So for the next 3 months my time will be entirely dedicated to angel. Here's hoping we only make positive improvements and she brings us more joy like she does everyday!

Sunday, 13 November 2011

Exams Exams and some more Exams!

Its exam week for me, sitting 3 exams in the next 7 days and I've got 2 on the same day! Wireless Security, Wireless Networking and Network Security. Sounds tough? well they are but I've been acing  the assignments so I am not trying to stress too much about the exams, however my motivation to study is zero at the moment, hence why am on here making this post rather than studying. I suppose not having angel around at the moment should help but it kinda makes it worse because I'm always thinking what she is up to, did she eat well today? how did she do at therapy? etc etc...the usual worries. I would have preferred having her here with me so I could check up on her whenever i wanted. oh well...I will be seeing her in less than 12 days now. So having no other choice I better get back to studying. Wish me Luck?

Wednesday, 9 November 2011

Cure for Autism??

"Cure for Autism", that's my Google search everyday! Ever since angel was diagnosed I have very religiously been doing the same search everyday. ( and for those who dont already know...there is no cure!) As any parent in a similar situation I wish there was a magic pill or treatment available that would take away all these problems my little girl is going through. Part of my daily routine is trying to find various ways in which I as a father can help my little girl, The thought of her growing up and still having to deal with these hurdles scares the hell out of me, i don't even get sleep some nights. I want to be around and her help her in every stage of her life but I know that's not possible. I aint going to be around forever. Being in this situation is probably one of the most helpless situation any parent can be in. I wish I could take the blame and say, its because of me angel has got this problem, it would have given me some consolidation so I could at least point the finger to myself. 

But I am hopeful, I am not here to give up. I have to continue this journey as long as it takes. So what if everyone around me is having a normal life? I am sure there is light at the end of this tunnel for us, so I'll think positive and ask the question to Google everyday..."Cure for Autism" someday there will be a different response..I am sure...

Monday, 7 November 2011

Girls with Autism..

A video i came across on youtube about girls with autism and a few facts about the difference between the boys and girls on the spectrum. Some interesting facts....


Thursday, 3 November 2011

Where is the Charity Spirit?

Today as I was looking back at the last few months and thinking of all the things that took place in our lives I remembered an incident during our first visit at the Doctor's when Angel got diagnosed with Autism. After consulting the doctor we went over to the chemist with was located right next to the the same building as the doctor, There was a crowd of around 15 parents and their kids buying the medication the doctor had just prescribed. There was a married couple ahead of us who looked rather worried and upset, they had with them their son who looked about the same age as angel. Once they were served by the staff at the chemist, he got back to them saying the medication would cost X amount. Both of them looked at each other and then the husband reached out for his wallet and started counting the money he had, I wasn't sure what happened and he told us to proceed ahead as they might take a while. The staff at the chemist gave us the medication but during that time both my wife and I couldn't help but wonder what was happening, we noticed the couple in a heavy discussion and then the wife pulled out her wallet and started getting out some loose change she had, it was obvious they did not the required money for the medication.

As we headed back outside the building, my wife and I did not say a word. All iIcould think was I hope they are able to buy the medication for their kid. As we almost got into the car, my wife and I again looked at each other and just nodded, we knew we had to do something. My wife said we cant leave knowing the situation we had just seen, As we rushed back towards the chemist, that couple was still there and we over heard them talking to the staff member, the husband said "which is the most important medication from the list on the prescription?" "We will take only that today." The staff member looked puzzled and told them they need to get them all at once. Without saying anything further I gave them the money for the medication and we told them to take care of the little kid. They had tears in their eyes and the smile on their face is still fresh in our minds. We promised we wouldn't mention this to anyone when we got home, But the only thought that was in my mind was, there were so many people there, why didn't any of them offer to help? Couldn't someone at least offer to buy one item for them? Why do we live in a world where there is so much selfishness? doing charity does not need to be about giving money alone, give your time to a worthy cause, offer someone help if they need it. I was always told by my parents that doing charity and helping others is a gateway to heaven.  I hope to instill such values in Angel as she grows up. Come on people, the next time you see someone in distress or in a difficult situation, don't walk away...help them!